What A Difference A Day Makes

What a rush! To create a living, breathing business from my own imagination.

To watch it grow and flourish.

However, because I then saw life through scarcity and fear lenses, personal and financial challenges occurred in the extreme and so brought me to the brink with alcohol addiction. How odd, I thought, to be functioning and yet experiencing the slow and agonizing death of my body, mind and soul.

I mistakenly believed that control was mine and yet lived in daily fear it would all crumble around me. And, of course, in a way, it eventually did.

Now, 10 years sober, I live in wonder at the role of the Divine in my life and how I could only overcome this horrible addiction by surrendering to the process of life and accepting who I really am a spirit having a blast in human form! Surrendering to a power greater than myself was mightily painful and excruciatingly powerful. It was on that day and at that moment that everything inside and outside me shifted. What a difference a day made.

When, five years into recovery, I found myself face-to-face with my worst nightmare, my initial reaction was to retreat into anger. The 2 doctors who had been the financial mainstays quit Harmony and moved on with their lives. I had nursed an irrational fear of losing them for 10 years because I believed that they had the power to tear down what I had built.

Well, it only took me 10 years but, by god, I finally created what I had feared! No one has ever said that Deanna lacked conviction and tenacity!

When the doctors made their announcement I retreated into my frightened, angry, resentful self. Blaming them for my imminent demise. Didn't they know they had the power to ruin me?

Oh, but after a week of this, in stepped the Divine again to point out that these doctors had every right to move on. After all, hadn't I done that many times in my careers? My business wasn't a family and their leaving was not a divorce. In that moment I experienced the miracle of spiritual insight. I knew then that they were not to be the butt of my blame but the recipients of my forgiveness and thanks for giving me the gift of a fresh start. What a revelation. What a relief.

The moment I was struck with the truth, my fear dissolved. My light shone brighter and I began to attract doctors who wanted to help me by bringing their practices to my service! I had put my house on the market the moment the doctors announced their intention to leave and one of the new doctors bought it!

Over the next 2 years I became very adept at following where I was led. Friends were amazed at how my faith had grown so big and powerful. And one day, I knew it was time to sell Harmony.

The accountants said the business was worthless but I had this internal itch that said "trust in the process." A potential buyer appeared and offered a magnificent price. Six months of negotiation and the deal fell through.

My father was probably more disappointed than I. In July he died and immediately after returning from his funeral, a doctor contacted me about a business issue and within months he owned Harmony having paid my magnificent price! Surely my father had a hand in this synchronistic event.

I experienced a rebirth at that moment and my life changed forever. After taking care of my need for rest and renewal I had to then answer the question "What next?" Within 3 months of hiring my coach I came to know that my "gift" was in sharing what I had come to know as truth. It was my time to speak out and be a comfort to others.

And I would do this as a professional speaker and coach. I began speaking and coaching on courage, inventing your future, the art of Attraction Marketing, spirituality in the workplace and more. I have put all of my many professions and personal experiences to work for the benefit of others and myself.

My life continues to unfold flawlessly as I increase my knowledge, speak to and coach brilliant people and simply move through my life with faith, purpose, determination and gratitude.

Wow! What a difference a "day" makes.

By Deanna Rutherford