Healing Breast Cancer from Within

For years I had a yearning to live in the sunshine. Spain was my objective, and after many years of delays, I was finally getting ready for the big move, when I found the School of Energy Healing, suddenly I just knew I had to do this course and enrolled. The week before our first week’s training in Wales, I received an invitation for a routine mammogram, The first week in Wales in October was magic, I felt like I had finally come home. The healing work we did was amazing, and the processing opened an insight into the energies of anger and pain. Two weeks later I received another letter from the hospital. The x-rays showed multiple calcifications throughout my left breast.

For certainty they needed to take a biopsy of the affected tissue. 3 Weeks later it confirmed I had cancer of the milk ducts and lobules, it still looked to be contained and no sign of metastases. The surgeon explained the only treatment option was a total Mastectomy, with reconstructive surgery! When I started to talk about healing and alternative treatments, trying to change diet etc I got nowhere. He was very adamant that surgery is my only chance of survival. Told me that the last client he had that thought she could cure her cancer by meditation was dead within 2 years. I felt bullied it seemed as if they where feeding of the fear! I was trembling and shaking, but I stood my ground and refused to submit to the operation. I had no idea where to start, no experience with cancer at all, but deep down inside I knew that it was a test of faith; do I really believe that cancer is curable? There followed weeks/months on the Internet, reading books. So much information out there, and so much misinformation to sift through.

I had no fear of dying. I have had a Near Death Experience many years ago, and since then the knowledge of what was waiting for me left me in a state of inner peace. But it my mission here was not yet complete, it felt like it had only just begun, and instead of concentrating on healing others I had to learn how to heal myself. In order to support my body I started an intensive detox. No meat, dairy produce, sugar, alcohol, coffee, tea, wheat, in fact the only thing left was mainly raw food and lots of vegetable juices.

It was tough, in the cold of the winter to go through the final stages of the detox, 9 days of juices only. In the end it felt like I was trying to force my body, like punishing it for being bad. I wanted to be able to do this from a loving and caring space.

I received energy healing sessions from Marc Blausten, and the very first session with him took me to some very painful places. I could feel the intensity of physical pain all over, then we went even deeper, suddenly I saw myself as a young female warrior standing next to a huge black vortex, spinning around like a big back door. I was afraid, but knew that in order to conquer my fear I had to lay down my weapons, take off my armor and then I stepped into this gate facing all my fears. As soon as I stepped through, it opened up and I felt like floating and totally supported in an intense dark blue sea of tranquility. It was like drinking in pure nourishment and love. Eventually he pulled me back out again. I did not want to leave this magic place, so he said that I could return there any time I wanted to, so I went right straight back in, and eventually came back out again. We had opened the door to my source, and by repeating this process I have been able to reconnect with that nourishment, whenever I needed to.

Throughout the next few months, I felt almost like my life was not real. I approached the healing sessions with the intention of going to all the painful places of my childhood in the hope that this would resolve my healing. At CORE processing I went into it with such vigour, and unleashed such fury and pent up anger that I needed to kill and annihilate. My body was so stiff for 2 weeks. Finally I found a doctor which would support me nutritionally. We took blood samples for cancer makers, so that we could monitor my progress without invasive mammography or biopsies. By July results where still very high. This doctor then also recommended that I have the mastectomy. I felt betrayed and abandoned. During the last 6 month, the sale of my house fell through 3 times, and my relationship had disintegrated. And then there where all the costly supplements, like shark liver oil, Vitamins & IP6, etc, etc.

Many important healing sessions followed. My healer suggested that we go back to a childhood accident and release the cell memory of that event. I experienced the intensity of the physical pain I went through then, but I open my eyes, and looked around I saw the table, and I was totally alone in the room. It was such a huge relief to “know” what happened that fateful day.

On another occasion I tried to explore my asthma, and had such problems relaxing and feeling into my chest. We ended up with me being back at my birth, stuck in the birth canal, unable to breathe. I could feel myself detaching from my body and viewing the whole event from 2 meters above. Then I went back into my body and was born. I found a way of trusting my body, with a 5rhythms dance group. Every week I could explore my body; my dance evolved from not being able to move my feet to getting carried by the rhythm, to stomp, float, glide and fly.

The second year was approaching and I felt at times like a total failure, my confidence was thoroughly shaken by not being able to cure myself instantly. How could I go out and proclaim that I can heal others, when I can’t heal myself? The more I was able to surrender and let go of the need to “fight the cancer” the more magic was revealing itself, the more I was healing the more the people around me where also healing. I was charmed; all the right people would come into my life whenever I needed them. I also found a nice little flat right next to a thermal lake; it has a constant temperature, no chlorine, no chemicals, and just some big whoppers of fish.

Trying to heal cancer is a full time job: Half an hour of meditating/inner healing when I wake up, then one hour qigong, ten minutes on the trampoline, then making fresh juice, and washing up, going swimming, sometimes healing sound meditation. It became a 3-hour affair before I could actually leave the house. I had to learn to have more compassion, and give myself time out, and start to listen to what my body actually needs, not just following some strict regime.

At one healing I felt at total harmony with the universe, total oneness. There was no separation, but there was total awareness. I was at peace; total surrender and at the same time total consciousness.

Then on the final week we dealt with entities. I asked to investigate what entity is hiding inside my chest, and feeding the cancer. Slowly I forced myself to be totally aware of the process. It felt like condemning my own child to death. I felt such pain of separation and would have done just about anything to keep it. Round about the same time I also met with a healer friend who is a medical scientist and we discussed healing on the DNA level. For the next week I had the most intense visual experiences. The images where so powerful that I selected one of them and worked with it every day.

Things accelerated, in a short time I felt different. These daily explorations in the cellular level where more like having fun, than serious healing work.

Now I knew it was time for another blood test. The result was a stunning reduction. From 160 down to 22, with a reference range of 5-15. It was still just outside the range and I was wondering how the doctor would interpret these. But when I finally talked with her she was over the moon about it and assured me that anything under 25 can be considered to be NO CANCER. She said that she very rarely sees anybody having such fantastic results without having at least IV treatment and she wanted to know about everything I did to cure myself. I don’t think there is any one thing that did it, but the release of many unexpressed emotions and remaining focused on a positive outcome and finally letting go of it all and let love and light come into my body. This was 3 years ago, and my blood tests have come back each year with a positive result.

By Roswitha Russnak